2nd ultrasound

Infertility does have its perks, ultrasounds! Most women get one ultrasound their whole pregnancy around 20 weeks. At 9 weeks we got another one just to make sure the babe was growing how it should. This time N was able to be there and T (N's 13 year old, B's step daughter).

It is so crazy how much the babe changed and grew in just two short weeks. Once again it was so amazing to see this little miracle up there. B, N, T and B's mom were taking pics and video of the little one like crazy. It was so fun. You can even see little arm and leg buds forming!




(August 6)

symptoms

I am feeling very fortunate to not have too many pregnancy related symptoms this time around. This has definitely been my "best" pregnancy yet! By this point in all three of my other pregnancies I was feeling sick all day, HAD to eat every hour or so, couldn't function without a nap and really hormonal.

As of now, about 9 weeks along, I feel nauseous a few times a day which is easily handled with a little food and of course I have that exhausted feeling but I don't need a nap. The worst of it is I am at the beginning of that just feeling and looking super chubby phase. I can't wait to get past that and into the cute pregnant stage.

We will be having our second ultrasound in a few days and I can't wait because after that I get to finally stop all my meds and shots. YAY! My butt is quite sore now and its hard to find a place to poke the needle that isn't a bunch of built up scar tissue. Also Hubbs, who gives me my shots, fell and broke his wrist so I have to assist holding the place to insert the shots while he gives them. Not fun.

(August 3)

Baby are you there?

We got to go have our first ultrasound this afternoon and it was such an emotional and amazing experience!  B was beyond excited too, she was counting down the hours. This is the point where if everything looks good you can breath a bit easier. You will know there is a baby/babies in there and hopefully see a heartbeat.

When I arrived to the local clinic that was doing our ultrasounds B's sister, mom, step dad and B were there. Unfortunately N is out of town. I was so excited to give B a little yellow musical giraffe I had found for the babe. She loved it and it is her very first baby item :)

So we all piled into the room, by the way is so nice with a big screen tv on the wall for them to watch and one on the ceiling for me, and hoped to get some really good news. B stood on one side of me and her mom on the other. Man I love these people. I knew what to look for and expect but B did not. I couldn't help but smile and smile as I saw that little bean up there on the screen. I also was able to see the little flicker of a heartbeat right away which came as relief to me. I haven't had ANY pregnancy symptoms except tiredness. Usually by 7 weeks I am nauseous and my boobs kill.

The absolute BEST moment though was when the Dr let us hear the little ones heartbeat. It was so so so amazing. I had so many emotions running through me at once. Gratitude that this little miracle was there. So extremely happy for the Sweets and their whole family. Love for them. So excited. Humbled to be apart of this moment. I had tears streaming down my face as I looked around and saw everyone else in the room did too. It was such a tender moment. Moments like this don't come often and it reminds me that there is a loving Heavenly Father who is helping all this happen and is aware of our lives.  B mentioned that she had never heard a baby's heartbeat before. It was such a great experience.

Seriously I just felt complete JOY! It also felt so surreal. I was not sad in any way that this little one isn't mine. I was just so happy for THEM.

As we said goodbye B gave me the sweetest card and her family gave me a gorgeous bouquet of flowers. B's mom also gave me a letter. The letter talked of how this trial of B's has been hard on all of them and as her mom how it has been painful knowing what struggles B has had to face to be a mom. I honestly had never thought about what a miracle this little one will be to their whole family, not just B and N. I am so grateful for her sharing her story with me about B. I am also just so excited that it is really happening and I am helping to do this for them.

Well with that here is baby Sweets debut and first pic

(July 20)

First Craving

The Sweets baby gave me my first craving today. Martinelli's Sparkling Apple Juice. MMMMMM it is good. I text B and told her she had to go get some too, she already had some on hand :)
Funny thing is, B has been craving avocados. I totally believe its true cause I know Hubbs got cravings all the time when I was pregnant with our little ones :)

(July 4)

2nd beta

Once again I couldn't find a sitter and had to drag my 3 chitals along with me to my blood draw. Once again they were so good. Things (besides my stinkin' med mistake) have gone so smoothly with this process I can't help but feel that it is meant "2 B"!

The wait seemed even longer today. B text me and asked if I felt pregnant, haha. We were hoping for a 42 or higher beta. I felt like I KNEW we were pregnant but I didn't want to get my hopes too high. How many times have people had a good first beta and then it not double? Chemical pregnancy?

So when they called and said the second beta was a 48 I was so relieved!!!

WE ARE PREGNANT!!!

B and I talked and she is beyond thrilled and couldn't wait to skype N (he is out of town). She also decided she was going to send out a text like this

We are.....

 to her family. I can't wait to hear their reactions.

When we got off the phone she text me with

Oh my goodness!! I can't believe it!! I think I'm still in shock!! I really thought it wasn't going to happen! Holy Cow!! Im scared, nervous and excited! Probably how most 1st timers feel right?!:) Thank You so so so much!

I am just over the moon that it seems to all be working out and the Sweets are going to have a baby around March 7th!

(June 29)

I must be pregnant

 I woke up this morning even more sure I am pregnant! I had a dream that Hubbs was cheating on me! Whenever I am pregnant I have these dreams, at least 3 times a week. I also took a clearblue digital test that was "not pregnant" yesterday. This morning though those sweet words "pregnant" appeared! I text B right away. She text me

Whahoo Wahoo Wahoo Yippee! :) :) :) are you excited!!! YOU are making the impossible possible!!!

It is so great knowing that I truly may be helping her dreams come true! Hopefully this means our beta levels are rising. Tomorrow can't come fast enough. I am so excited for her to be able to tell her family!

I also text Hubbs and told him about the dreams, he knew right away I was pregnant too :)

 (June 28)

First beta in

 Our first beta number is in...... 21!!! We are so excited. B called to tell me and we were both so excited. I know on my end of the phone I had tears in my eyes.  B ended the call telling me "I love you, I love you, I love you!" I am so happy for her and that I may be able to give her the thing that has brought me the most joy and happiness in my life!

With B's other surro the only beta they ever got was a 1, then it went to 0. So this is such great news.

But we have to wait until Fridays beta to be sure (the beta number has to at least double). For now though there is hope!

(June 27)

First Beta

I couldn't help it, I have been taking pregnancy tests since day 2 being home. Other than being super crampy (which could also be caused from the meds) I have been wanting lots of cereal. I always want lots of cereal when I am pregnant. Of course its so early its probably all in my head.

Well yesterday morning at 5 days past transfer (it was a 5 day embryo so basically 10dpo) I swear I had a SUPER faint positive. I tried again 6dpt (days past transfer) and again I think it was super faint. I also went in today to have my blood drawn to get my betas. We are hoping for numbers anywhere between a 5 and 20.

I didn't have a sitter this morning so I had to take the chitals with me for the blood draw. I begged them to be good and quiet. I felt SO bad taking my 3 kids, one being a 7 month old baby, into a fertility clinic. Most people in there are trying to have little ones and here I am with 3...

They were so good though and TheBigGuy was so concerned if the needle hurt me, cute huh?

Now we have to wait until this afternoon to find out what our beta number is, fingers crossed...

(June 27)

No turning back now

The Transfer!!!

B, Jean and I had such a great time! The road trip flew by. We laughed and talked for 3 days straight. Sitting by the pool, eating out and SLEEPING all night long WITHOUT being woken up by any of my children were some of the highlights :) It was so funny because more than a few times B and I would say the exact same thing at the same time or finish each others sentences. It truly is crazy how alike we are.

The transfer went so well. I had no idea what to expect so for any of you curious what exactly goes on in the IVF/transfer process I will tell you. We arrived at the Dr's office and waited. Then we were called back to our room and I was given valum. Pretty sure I never felt any different but I wasn't really nervous any way. I had to have a full bladder and it was full! I wanted to use the restroom so bad. B then signed a paper stating that they were implanting one embryo that was graded at  B2. The embryo was also a 5 day transfer. When the transfer time came the nurse was using the ultrasound on  my stomach while the Dr. inserted the cathader. Then the embryolagist brought in the embryo and announced that he was inserting one embryo of B's into me and asked if that was correct. The embryo was in a syringe that they inserted and pushed into the cathader. The embryo is actually in a water droplet that we got to see float down into my uterus. It was all very quick and painless.

For the next hour we sat there with my hips and legs propped up. After that I was on bedrest for the next 24 hours. B and Jean waited on me while we sat in our hotel and watched movies and ate treats. We did go to the store at one point and I rode around in the motorized carts. It was quite embarrassing and funny. Let's just say those people that use them frequently have got some skills.

Also throughout the whole trip we kept getting "signs" that it is meant to be (I know we are so silly) But honestly we kept happening to park in lot B on the 2nd floor and one time our spot really said 2B. And the biggest one of all the embryo was a B2. I just pray all goes well and hope that if it doesn't that we can all have hope that it will work out sometime.

On our way home the next day I was so exhausted and just know its cause my body is trying to grow a baby! So now we get to wait a week and a half for our first beta, but I am pretty sure I wont be able to wait that long and will do a home pregnancy test. I am a test-a-holic :)

(June 21)