Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Tomorrow!

Just sitting here waiting for the hospital to call and confirm that we can go in tomorrow morning for our induction! I can't believe the time has come so quickly for baby Sweet to be here. It seems like just yesterday I was contemplating even doing this and so excited to let B know when I finally did decide I could do this for them.

Now here we are with a full term baby and we are all going to meet him tomorrow! This evening we went out to dinner and laughed, talked and anticipated this little ones arrival. It felt so good to get out and just enjoy some time together. It feels very surreal to me that in just a few short hours I will be giving birth to a miracle. A baby that is so loved and that so many have struggled, cried, suffered, hoped for, prayed for, etc for so long. And now he will be here and we are all going to be able to snuggle him.

I am feeling anxious, nervous, excited, not sure of the unknown. This is so different to be planning to go the hospital tomorrow to give birth to a baby that is not mine. I wont be bringing him home and my kids wont be there to see a sibling. There is nothing set up at our house for a new little one, we are not bringing a carseat or a newborn outfit and blankets.

But I am excited. I am anxious to see this little one with his mommy and daddy. All his family members who will be there to meet him. I know what I am doing is such an amazing gift and that my Heavenly Father has helped me to get to this point and will help me through the rest of it.

I just got the call and we are to go in at 7 AM! What an exciting day lays ahead of us all. Thank You to everyone for your love, encouragement and support. It has meant the world to me.





Saturday, February 23, 2013

Past full term and READY

We are ready to go! Little guys dad is here in town and we are officially past full term. At our 37 week appointment we found out I am dilated to a 3 now and 50% effaced, so at least those contractions did some progress! We also discussed setting up an induction and are all set to go on Thursday February 28th if baby Sweet hasn't made his arrival before then. Our next appointment was scheduled the day before that and it would be silly to go in and then be induced 14 hours later so that was our last Dr appointment!

We are all so excited to meet this little man. B took me to get a pedicure and boy did it feel great! So sad I forgot to take pics. I am getting huge and feeling it too! I think I always forget how uncomfortable and huge I get the last few weeks of pregnancy. Definitely living in my yoga pants and still having regular but not painful enough or close enough contractions.

Hopefully the next time I post it will be because baby Sweet has arrived!


 37 weeks
 Hubbs and I going out for Valentines
 38 weeks
 

Sunday, February 17, 2013

Now these are contractions!

With all 3 of my little ones I have always been induced. I contract regularly for months like I mentioned but it never gets to that point where I KNOW I should go in. Jean has told me time and time again that her hospital they know when someone is in real labor or if its false labor by just seeing them walk down the hall to their desk. When the women walk in and they are basically just walking in or looking uncomfortable, these women are most likely not there to stay. But when a women comes down the hall, has to stop and breathe through contractions and can't talk through them, then its the real deal.

I have had painful contractions. I have had really painful contractions before my epidurals and even once when my epidural wore off during labor with LittleDarlin. But I have NEVER experienced what I realize (atleast I hope) now to be true contractions.

We had our 36 week appointment, I am barely a one. I go about my day and have a spicy chicken sandwich from Chick-fa-la for dinner go home and have my usual contractions and go to sleep for the night. Hubbs kisses me goodbye as he leaves for work around 5:15 AM. I go back to sleep. 15 min later I wake up super uncomfortable, what is this. These are odd contractions, definitely more crampy then I am used to. So I try and sleep through them for about an hour. Can't sleep. Too uncomfortable and starting to get painful. I get up and start pacing the room. Could this be the real deal? No. Wait these are really hurting and are really crampy. Maybe they are. I text B around 6:45 AM and tell her to bring a bag with her to work cause these contractions are getting bad and this might be it. She throws a bag together, leaves for work and waits to hear from me. I decided I better pack a bag too and then I will shower and try timing these things. They are about 2-3 minutes apart lasting 1-2 minutes. Ok this might really be it.

I called Hubbs and he could tell I was in serious pain and couldn't talk through some of them. He was ready to go straight to the hospital and tell them to get a room ready for me cause his work is less then 5 minutes from there. I told him to hold off. B of course is panicking, N is not here. He is flying home tomorrow.... Yes tomorrow. How could he miss this by one day?

Well fortunately it was all a false alarm people, false alarm. They started to get less intense about 7:30 AM so I laid down, I was exhausted from the last two hours of contractions and I hadn't slept well cause littledarlin was up a ton that night. I text B and Hubbs and let them know. I felt so bad worrying everyone. But like B said she wants to go through these scares with me since she doesn't get to experience it herself. I felt crampy the rest of the day but things have seemed to calmed down. I have been a bit more tired but contractions in general have slowed way down. So now we wait some more and are grateful that N will be home shortly!

(February 12)

Saturday, February 16, 2013

36 weeks folks, 36 weeks

 We are in the last few weeks of this adventure and I have so many thoughts! I am indeed ready to be done because it is getting to that point where I am just huge and uncomfortable. Also I am ready to "move on". I feel like we (as in me, hubbs, our family) are kind of just at a stand still until after this little one is born. Don't ask me why, its not like we will be doing anything major as soon as baby Sweet arrives. Maybe because it is this great, amazing, life changing thing that we have been through before but it is not for us. We won't be the ones with a new smiling face added to our family. We will just go on as we have been (except maybe with a bit more patient and kind mommy and wife, I tend to be a bit impatient and snarky when I am pregnant).

At the same time I can't believe how soon it will be over! It feels like just yesterday I was contemplating it. In fact it was just about a year ago that we were at the family party when B told me "I just want to be a mommy" and it touched me so deeply. B and N had just had their THIRD transfer with their other surro. Look at us all now! Soon little boy Sweet will be in his mommy and daddy's arms!

Our 36 week appointment went well as expected. I am barely dialated to a 1. I thought it would be a bit more with all these contractions but no, just a one.

N will be back in town this coming Wednesday and we will be 37 weeks, so anytime after that little man you are welcome to come!



 (February 11)

Monday, February 11, 2013

34 weeks!

Seriously, can you believe it? I can't. This little guy could be here ANY day. In fact my contractions are getting more consistent and intense with each passing day. I am a contractor though, I just contract and contract for weeks/months on end and have always had to be induced, so we will see.

Things have still been going great. Nothing to worry about, more uncomfortablness, last few weeks of pregnancy etc. B and I went and took a hospital tour so she could see the labor/delivery room and the post partum rooms, where to go when the time comes, etc.

I realized I hadn't really said anything on Facebook and many people I know probably didn't know I was doing this. So I made a little announcement because I know when baby Sweet arrives I am going to want to let the people I do know see pics etc. And of course I don't want people to be like "what they had a baby?" and then see us in a few months and we really don't have a baby.

Anyways I couldn't believe once again the outpouring LOVE and SUPPORT from everyone! I feel so humbled and kind of awkward hearing so many people tell me how amazing they think I am. Honestly I just know I am doing something amazing for amazing people. Which got me thinking. I know everyone is always telling me how awesome of a thing I am doing and how great I am but I think about N and B.

They are the amazing ones. They have been through SO much hurt, heartache, emotions, financial burdens and years and years of it to get to this point. I CAN NOT imagine all they have had to deal with to get to this point. I am just extremely grateful for the opportunity to help them and so happy that they will finally be able to have JOY, fulfillment and that unconditional LOVE they have been wanting and deserve by having a little one.

Here is the pic I posted on FB


  (January 31)

Saturday, February 9, 2013

Funny Story

I know I have said before how much B and I are alike here. So I thought I would share this funny story (even though I am sure Hubbs would rather I didn't, hehe).

There was a short period of time back when Hubbs and I were dating that we took a short "break". Of course we never really stopped dating each other and couldn't stay away from each other and got back together officially pretty quickly. And since we were still involved with each other during our "break" we shared everything we did when we were apart.

Well there was this instance where Hubbs met this "hot" girl that worked at Lowe's. Hubbs loved the fact that she was wearing a Fox Racing shirt (he rides dirt bikes) and started talking to her about riding and bikes. She told him how her brother rode, etc. Hubbs and his friend had to go back to Lowe's like 3 times that day. Finally on the last time Hubbs got up the courage and asked for her number. She told him she had a boyfriend (who actually worked at Lowes too). I am pretty sure Hubbs was crushed.

Well Hubbs tells me this story and of course I am extremely jealous and hate this girl I don't even know.

Fast forward 3 months or so. We go to dinner at Jean's fiance's house to meet the family etc. We are eating spaghetti and his sister spills on her shirt and runs upstairs to change. She comes down wearing a Fox Racing shirt and I notice as soon as she comes back down Hubbs is all tense and starts acting odd. The first second we can leave he is all over it. I was so confused why he was acting funny.

As we pull out of their driveway Hubbs exclaims, "that is her!" I am like that is who? He says that is B.... I still don't get it. He tells me "that is the Lowes girl!" He didn't realize it was her until he saw her put on that Fox Racing shirt!

Oh my goodness, I just laughed! Of course by this time Hubbs and I were back together so this whole jealous thing was past. Little did I know that in the next few months to come I would realize JUST how much alike B and I are. We even attract the same type of men!
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Saturday, February 2, 2013

Here! Here! Here!

YAY! We officially get to have baby Sweet HERE! Up until our court date we didn't know for sure if we would be legally able to have the little guy here or if we were going to have to try and have him in the transfer state. As our court date approached we were all getting a little nervous. We did everything our state requires to get a pre-birth order which will basically make it so when baby Sweet is born B and N are the legal parents. We did the psych eval, signed contracts, B and N had a home study, etc.

But you still never know what the judge will say. It is all up to one judge to either agree with what we are doing or not. If they are having a bad day or they just don't agree they could deny us the pre-birth order. We were nervous because most surrogates and the Intended Parents get the pre-birth order in our state before the transfer ever takes place.

Hubbs and B had to take work off and N had to fly home so we could make our court date and time. I hadn't seen N in a while because he has been still working out of town. He couldn't believe how big his LO had grown (as in how big my stomach has gotten). Luckily for us we went in and the judge basically just congratulated all of us and said he saw no problem with what it!

We were all so excited and so grateful that once again most of this process has gone smoothly and working out! So yay for us, we will be having baby Sweet here in 8 weeks or less!


 (January 18)